My brother is coming home todayyy! In about 2 and a half hours, Im so excited, I havent seen him in months :))))

A job?

Wow. I really want a job, and I have this awesome opportunity at a retirement home BUT my mom's all like "I think you should get your freshman year over with, and rowings going to be really intense spring season, blah blah blah..." Ok, this is a one day a week kinda thing, mom come onnnnn its not going to interfere with my school work or crew. Ughhhh.

Ahhh new music has been discovered! (for myself, not like I discovered it for the greater public) I love it, so refreshing and new, and I can just listen to these songs forever! So I don't really keep up with the show gossip girl but I found the iMix playlist and found alot, i mean ALOT of amazing songs... a few that I preferred... Time To Pretend (MGMT), Cities in Dust (Junkie XL), Shove It (Santogold), Do the Panic (Phantom Planet) Plusss, the album cover of the Phantom Planet one is pretty funny, duct-taped to a wall??? Only my biggest dream ever. I also love that song "Just Dance" by lady gaga... From the 30 seconds on iTunes it makes it sound like one of those teen girl songs about some blonde haired girl who's free dancing spirit is just "being herself and letting loose" even though everybody knows that she's going to "just dance" in front of that amazingly gorgeous guy because she knows that she's hot and he will most definitely ask for her number. But when I finally broke down and bought it because it was up to #2 I realized that it was so much more than that and I'm a totally judgemental person. Oh well.

Spankin new GAME PLAN

HEY so I'm gonna get a new game plan... flirt as much as my heart desires! I mean, I'm only 14 right? I have all my life left for a real relationship, so why not take my chances at screwing things up now? There's this really hot guy in my biology class who sits in front of me, but one time my friend and I were talking about him and she pointed out the fact that he looks like a male version of Correy from that MTV show paris' new BFF... which is shockingly true now that I think about it.... and so whenever I look at him I can only think of that. haha, it's funny though because Correy makes a damn fine lookin guy. And then there's more complicated, man-whore flirting who used to be my friend's boyfriend a long time ago kindof of flirting... but he is really really really ( i mean REALLY) cute and charming and... urrrg such a slutmonster of a guy.

I need to expand my horizons more, right? I need to know what kind of guy I'm looking for and find him, facebook stalk him, and flirt with all of the Seventeen magazine tips I can find.


By the way... RIP relationships Josh + Emily (now English will be super awkward since I sit between them...), Nicole + what's his face who plays the ukelele (he dumped her in a LUNCH LINE, that bastard of a ukelele playing freak), Jenny + Edward, and Jay + Merce (she was just using you Jay, don't feel bad)

Ugh.

Why can't he just go away? How about if he just wasn't in my line of vision anymore, that would be nice. Hey, maybe he could stop always moving to right in front of me at lunch, or he could stop lending me his jacket when it looks like I'm cold, or just stop calling me names like "sweetie" and "babe" all the time when he knows that I know that he likes one of my best friends, or he could stop being so damn ripped, tan, and sexy (god, the nerve he has!). I was thinking hey, he could just ask my friend out and then they would break up and then he would move on but instead he goes all like "not wanting a relationship right now" urrrrrg....